Sunday, February 10, 2013
Humble Pie- The rest of the story...
Today is a day for celebrating! I post this with complete permission from my husband. This family photo was taken today.
Four years ago I wrote my way through some very difficult circumstances on a blog called, Humble Pie. At that time I was broken, my marriage was broken and I lived consumed by fear and insecurity. After awhile I quit blogging on humble pie choosing to walk out the rest of our healing in private. It's been a long journey- one with big highs but also extreme lows. Blogging is a funny thing. When you post you are able to edit out anything you don't want online. You can choose to only show the most beautiful parts of life. Some may even get the wrong idea thinking that bloggers live in some sort of perfect world with gorgeous meals and clean homes but truly, none of us live in perfection.
My life is a walking miracle. Through the last four years God has been so faithful to fill me with joy every day no matter what the circumstances. It's crazy but the worse things got the stronger my security became because through it all he taught me to find my identity in Him and Him alone and not in this world or my surroundings. I've had JOY and PEACE and actually, FUN as I've walked this road because if there's one thing I can stand on with all my heart it's that, "If God is for us, WHO can be against us." and that you can actually be FULL OF JOY in the midst of struggle.
The last sixth months have been amazing as I've watched my husband begins to walk in COMPLETE FREEDOM from his past. I've watched in awe as the Lord has been molding him into a man of integrity. Sometimes it just shocks me he's so different!! As he's walked with the Lord I've watched him become a man of humility, and generosity, and kindness. I've seen his life of chaos turn to a life full of peace. I've seen him content and happy and so completely grateful!
Fast forward to today.
I didn't get to go to church today because my little peanut has a cold. I was enjoying a slow and quiet morning when suddenly my phone was ringing off the hook with texts. The first one I read was from Neal, it read, "I got baptized this morning!" and then he texted me a smiley face. My first reaction was, "WHAT!? without me???" I sobbed for about an hour so happy but also sad to have missed it."
Neal came home to share the details with me.
He said he was sitting alone in the balcony during a baptismal service when our pastor announced the opportunity to anyone else in the congregation that was interested. Neal was up in the balcony coming up with all sorts of excuses in his head as to why he shouldn't go down; but before he knew it, he was up on his feet and walking down.
Many in the congregation began to cry IMMEDIATELY when they saw Neal begin to come forward. So many people know our story and the victory of this moment was amazing! Our pastor is my best friend's dad and when he saw Neal come around the corner ready to be baptized he embraced him! My mom said she looked down at our marriage counselor sitting in the front row and said he was sobbing- completely broken and so grateful to God! Our pastor said, "Neal, I would've waited ALL DAY."
One of the ladies in the choir turned to my mom and said, "This gives me hope for MY son." And then another,
"If Neal can be set free SURELY MY HUSBAND CAN!"
Before Neal could sit down many of our friends were running over to him and embracing him! So many people have stood by us through thick and thin. This is family. This is church. This is how we're supposed to be!
THIS IS A BENCHMARK DAY in our house!
This is the day that my husband took a PUBLIC STAND before man and GOD declaring to live the rest of his days for him!!
If you have someone in your life that you've been praying for don't ever EVER EVER give up!! Neal was that guy and now he's a NEW creation! He used to search and search for what would make him whole and now that he's found it he will NEVER GO BACK! And there isn't a reason in the world as to why that can't happen for you and your loved ones!