Sunday, April 29, 2012
A market reshoot
Do you know that I almost didn't take documentary photography. It was never in the plan. Let me rephrase. It was never in MY plan. But I just believe with all my heart that God has something up his sleeve for me. I can't explain it. I just know. I suppose that's what we call faith. I've spent many days agonizing over this blog, fretting over the quality of my photography, trying to think of everything I can think of to make "it" happen. And the funny thing is I have NO IDEA what "it" even is. All I know is that I would watch people take flight through blogging and be put in magazines, be paid for their work, etc, etc, etc and I would feel, well let's just put it out there; I would feel small. Ugh! That crazy discontentment. It can sneak it's ugly little head in anywhere. But here's the deal. When I shoot a beautiful photograph of something I'm crazy about like food, or farmers markets, or gardens, I feel giddy. Like explosive joy. And I love growing. When I look back at photos from a year ago I can't believe what I've learned. I know that people want me to share tips on this blog but you know what?? Do you know where I'm learning the most?? Those painful critiques. You know, the ones that made me question if I was on the right path and wondering if I should just quit. UGH!! I mean seriously, I would never just let my kids just quit at something just because it was hard or that they had to learn to wait patiently. But there is this ugly thing called pride. It makes me care what others think. It makes me have a difficult time with criticism. It takes away my patience and stunts my growth. I have to keep that baby in check all the time! In fact, criticism is why you're seeing these market photos on my blog today. My last critique from my professor was this, "I encourage you to reshoot this assignment." But I've learned to take criticism and I've found that if I will listen to every word and take these things to heart I will grow as a photographer. And truly, the more I grow, the more I enjoy! Oh I could've given up. I could've quit when I didn't grow as fast I would've liked. That would've been easy. But God gave me a verse. He reminded me to fix my eyes on HIM because HE's the author and FINISHER of my faith. He has a plan for me, an amazing plan! I can't even dream up what he has in store for me. He KNOWS! HE KNOWS what is best for me, my husband, and my children. And it's not going to look anything like my plan. It's going to be better! But I just have to keep going, keep trusting. I never thought I would fall so head over heals in love with documentary photography but it's got me, hook... line... and sinker! I LOVE meeting these people! It's CRAZY HARD to walk up to someone and hear there story and then capture them in a photograph BUT people are amazing! For example, the lady in the picture holding the eggs is a retired RN who loves the whole farm to table idea. She has 38 chickens if I remember right and a gazillion turkeys which she is getting ready to sell. She sells all sorts of beautiful colors of eggs simply because it makes washing the eggs more interesting for her. And then she sells at the markets because she loves the interaction with the people. She gave up her nursing career to pursue her passion and people like that inspire me. I want to meet more of these people and capture them on film. People inspire me and capturing these moments on film is filling me with a passions I've never known.